Goodness, it's been pretty baron on my page for quite some time now. I suppose i have my self to blame, i have put little-to-no effort into my 'deviant' life for longer than i can remember. Deviantart has changed an awful lot since i was properly active here last.. I miss the days when everything was a dark murky green and it would take about 5 whole minutes to upload any art. heh.. It's a real shame because i felt i had some quite solid hombrai's and homettes back in the day, who all are likely to have got fed up with me turning my back on the community and just stopped coming here.

I went through my gallery recently. I realised that 95% of absolutely everything i have ever uploaded is absolute trash, and moved the majority of it into a folder called 'Fail' and left the few deviations that i hated least in my featured gallery. I also remembered that there is such a thing as 'Scraps' which DeviantArt has made it extremely hard to find nowadays.. I found quite a few laughs in that folder to; THAT shit is seriously bad. But just as i refuse to delete photos, i refuse to delete deviations, because regardless of how cringey they are; they are memories all the same, and i wont delete memories.

Life is... not good at the moment. I wont go in to why, but i really feel that the only thing i am living for is my girlfriend; Harley. If it wasn't for her then my purposeless existence would drive me into such a miserable state that I'm not even sure i could stay sane. I'm aware that this sounds quite depressing and probably exaggerated, but this is honestly how i feel. Harley is such an angel though; she truly enables me to forget everything and just be happy. It's a phenomenon that is very hard to explain, being a depressed loon while alone then completely forgetting about it and being a grinning idiot when I'm with her.. That is how you know you are in love; when you can be with someone who can take the glummest of depressions, and turn it into the highest state of happiness. Unfortunately i cannot be with her all the time, and thus am in this miserable state whenever she isn't with me..

Which brings me on to my next subject; spare time. The spare time alone i have been getting recently is the most i have had since i was 15 (when i was MOST active on the community). I figured id come crawling back to DeviantArt to try and soak up some of that spare time. I dusted off all my shit and made some fresh shit and.. well.. yeah, here i am. Hoping that the community will take me back with open arms..

Finally; I have question for anyone who can be bothered to answer. I have always jumped back and forth between 2 styles. A somewhat abstract style; [link] and a cartoony style; [link] . I plan to further pursue one of these styles and leave the other behind. I feel that if i am consistent with one style i can improve my abilities and stop spitting out the same repetitive shit over and over again. So i would like to know what you think i should do more of and what i should just give up completely..